Spiritual Awakening, Kundalini and Demons

I pondered almost every day on what happened to me over a year ago – when my crown chakra opened and I felt a cool liquid engulfing my brain. This experience changed me as a person, and the transformation process hasn’t yet stopped.

What happened to me is considered to be awakening in esoteric terms. It happens when the kundalini energy goes up the spine and “lights up” the brain. This synchronizes both hemispheres and awakens inactive parts of the brain.

That awakening was frightening, because it temporarily rent a veil between the physical and the spiritual. I realized I was full of demons and I was opened to the spirit realm without knowing how to get out of that dimension. The opening of my crown chakra made me feel various energies entering and leaving me, and it felt like I was losing my personality.

Only recently I decided to no longer block all the eastern mystical information and started reading about these experiences and whether my interpretation of what happened to me over a year ago was right or wrong. And what I experienced is fully documented in esoteric teachings but the interpretations of those events are different from my own.

For example, according to esoteric teachings, when this awakening happens, you do realize you have demons for two reasons. It’s not that the practice of preparation for the awakening attracted demons, but that you had demons already in you because of your past evil behavior. Before the awakening you were ignorant of their presence, but after it you know it as your spiritual perception is heightened.

Another reason demons flock to the newly-illuminated person is because his or her vibration is really high and he or she is seen in the spirit realm as a bright and awakened being. Demons straight away see this bright figure because it’s very unusual (the astral plane is dark as most humans are asleep); they also feel threatened by this energy and therefore they flock to torment that person. Some demon-possession cases can happen during this period as well, if a person doesn’t know how to protect herself.

Demons try to frighten the person so that he stops his awakening at that point. Most of the time the strategy is successful – people get frightened when this happens and they stop their spiritual journey. But a few go through it and become fully-illuminated beings.

I failed that test (though I can take it again when I’m ready). I was not prepared for that at all. I believed in false new-age teachings that this awakening is all beautiful and positive. It’s nothing of the sort.

This awakening will show you the truth, and at first you will have to go through a hellish experience to reach the other end. This is the true purgatory, but it happens before death for those who want to be born-again in this existence.

When this experience started happening to me, my Christian (Catholic) upbringing kicked in and I assumed that I was deceived. But now I see that it was a reaction out of fear, and that it was my personal interpretation based on the knowledge that I currently had.

I demonized this process of awakening because it was a scary experience. I did not understand that it was just a step towards the full awakening. A person cannot become fully awakened unless he’s willing to face demons within and without. Going through this experience is like going through the purification fire – it’s not pleasant but required.

These days I was watching videos about the kundalini awakening experiences of people who had nothing to do with Christianity. Although their experiences were frightening as well, with time they healed and started experiencing the benefits of this awakening (like I do now).

It seems that the more impurities the person has, the worst experience she has to go through; and if a person forces this awakening whilst on drugs or leading a completely immoral life, the experience will be so hellish that he might never recover or see the purpose of that experience.

In the past I believed that if your crown chakra gets opened, you cannot close it unless God himself decides to heal you after begging Him to do so, or if you give your life to Jesus – that there’s no other way for it to close.

I was wrong. People who did not become Christian after this experience but continued with the process, eventually got healed. That being said, there are many who cannot handle this awakening and commit suicide or become mentally imbalanced.

This happens because they try to force-open their energy centers (chakras) when they are full of mental and physical impurities and lead immoral lives – thus they are totally unprepared for this awakening and do it for all the wrong reasons (they don’t do it to know God but to gain powers, etc.).

The most important thing to do for the crown chakra to close and for the life to normalize after this experience as fast as possible is to lead a moral life and totally ground yourself by spending much time outside, eating heavy food, doing physical work and reverting to a worldly way of life until you are ready to continue this awakening process (for me it took over a year to get ready for the next stage, and only now the desire is arising to do so).

The time of healing depends on the amount of mental and physical impurities, since that force (fire) that causes awakening burns all impurities eventually. When the work is done, the crown chakra will close.

When the cleansing process is being done, it’s important to protect yourself from demons by asking God to protect you, expelling them yourself (demons have no right to inhabit your body if you repent of your sins and lead a moral life), frequently baptizing yourself (fully immersing yourself in water or having a shower), and wearing white clothes is also told to be a good repellent from demons.

Based on a better knowledge through reading kundalini awakening testimonials and books on this force of the universe, I no longer think this force to be demonic. According to the research quoted in Satyananda Saraswati’s book on Kundalini Yoga, even animals have that force. It’s nothing demonic as all beings have it – it’s just sleeping in those who did not start the path of self-realization.

When the person is ready and willing to spiritually awaken, this force starts rising up the spine, burning all the impurities it meets in the spinal cord on its way to the crown chakra. This is a very different thing to how demons work; they usually enter through the openings in the head (eyes, nose, mouth) and if they possess a person, the person changes and acts like another personality.

Nothing of that sort happens when this universal energy starts rising up. It doesn’t possess a person but simply rises up burning energetic blockages it finds on its way. This sometimes causes swings and movements in order to unblock some nerve pathway, but those movements are not the same as the behavior of a demon-possessed person. Also, the person is in full possession of his consciousness when this purification process is happening. Sometimes there are no movements at all, but only heat is felt.

Since it’s the purification process, it’s not always pleasant. You may feel headaches and other discomforts. But that has nothing to do with demon-possession.

So I have to conclude that my interpretation of this phenomenon was wrong. Kundalini is neither dangerous nor demonic, but is a good purification force, which, when its main purification job is done, opens the crown (lifts the veil) for you to know the truth.

This can be frightening if one is not prepared; the truth could be that you are full of demons, or that your most cherished beliefs are completely false. This is, of course, unpleasant.

After the veil is lifted, major purification process starts. It can last days or even years – depending on how many blockages there are to burn. When the job is done, it descends back into the root chakra and may then again rise to make its home into the heart chakra to permanently stay there, as some hermetic teachings claim.

After more than a year of this experience, I can say for certain that benefits are definite. Once the hellish purification process if finished, you can notice what’s been accomplished. You become a person who is emotionally stable and rarely taken out of balance. That’s because after this experience both brain hemispheres are synchronized.

The mood is uplifted, and worldly problems no longer have a strong hold on the mind. You feel protected and loved. You feel connection to God. You don’t have strong attachments to anything, including your beliefs. Your learning ability and understanding greatly increases, because that anointing activates the parts of the brain that were never active before so the capacity to learn and understand increases.

I feel that I need to apologize for demonizing this transformation process. I should have read much more deeply about it rather than believing in false new-age claims about this process. It’s the most incredible experience a human being can go through, and it marks a major victory in the process of full awakening.

It’s something that’s unavoidable, and yes, some people won’t be able to handle it. That’s why thorough preparation is required for those who want to be spiritually born-again. New-age materials cannot prepare you for it as they give you false knowledge about this process.

If you lead a moral life and purify your mind and body; if you already live in harmony with the laws of God and are mentally strong and stable, you should be able to successfully go through this process. But no matter how much you prepare, it’s an event that cannot be compared with anything you’ve experienced before, and it will leave you changed forever.


  1. Matthew Koh says

    HI Simona, The evil one is a Father of all lies. Our reasoning mind alone cannot comprehend all truth. To be absolutely correct, do seek the Holy Spirit that know all truth and the deeper things of God.
    (John 14:26) “But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, HE WILL TEACH YOU ALL THINGS, and bring to your remembrance all things that I have said to you.” GB

    • Well said I’ve resently journey down this road to Kundalini awakening, but not first after spiritually dead to the flesh and all lust by the transformation of the mind, just as its easier for for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle then a rich man because of his worldly possessions. Narrow is the road and very few find it. But I’ve resently learned that constintine was one of the ones who changed the Bible and the true meaning behind raising the “christ oil/Spinal Fluid /csf. 325ad as he colonized the Bible.

  2. Also I have a Muslim friend. That was into new age before until he got a little crazy and now he holds his believe that allah is the one god. I can see the Cresent moon and star on there flag. The same one shiva wears on his crown. But how would I convince him that he is falling for a trap?.
    Thank you simona

    • I’m from a muslim background too and had an experience. I realized religion is a trap and I was able to see that because of the energy…as it moved and removed false beliefs from my system. You might not be able to convince him. Only our experiences can make us change our opinion at times. Also when I prayed 5x a day, then too I had paranormal experiences. Therefore I came to the conclusion that my energy had been high even then due to my moral life. It might be less about which religion but more about how pure the person is which allows them to take on this path, who is not being affected by the negatives of religion. Ps my symptoms began when I started practicing Sufism—- a spiritual Islam which was internally fullfilling.

  3. Hey hi simona mam..thanks for the article…please will you tell me person with opened third eye or a person with very much higher perception can read your mind even from miles away?? Is it possible?? Please explain mam..

    • For me after my awakening I could hear others thoughts I didnt intend to though. Only one person that I heard was around me. Some other things I heard were phone calls between others, and police and other emergency vehicle radio conversations.

  4. Dear Simona,

    This article is very soothing for me. Thank you for admitting that you were wrong about a few things. I salute you for your commitment to truth and to God.
    There is a very good teacher on kundalini called Tara Springett. This christian forum was also useful to me at some point :

    I hope you will find it interesting. I wish you all the best.

  5. I am happy and truly relieved to finally read this. At a point I really started to worry about the possible consequences of all that demonizing, as you defined it yourself, on the minds of people who may not have the best of intentions. Thank you, and congratulations from my heart, Simona

  6. Finally, FINALLY YOU REALIZED IT!!! I’m so happy!!!
    six months ago I read your experience with the crown chakra and I decided to give me a break from all esoteric things, but to be honest, my life was going better and I was more in touch with myself. Lately, without them, it’s easier to feed the negativity in my head.
    I am beyond thankful that you realized it was just fear inside you. For myself, I will return to my journey where I left it. Good luck and read you soon!

  7. Some advice for people who might get attacked by jinn/spirits, don’t give into fear and think and feel happy positive thoughts no matter how difficult it might seem at the time.

  8. I’ve been possessed since a teenager i was around 14 years he gave me depression nausea diarea pain trackt infecinfections stuffed nose smelly discharge smelly armpits unusual bumps on my face and body feeling dizzy feeling like I’m going to die telepathy talking to me made me forget everything burning on vagina for a month I couldn’t masturbate for 2 years nor have sex hair structure damage feeling like you can’t breathe all the time yellow teeth even if brushing 2 times a day horrible unbearable period pain that didn’t go away with anything and for a year I’m waiting for him to finally kill me or leave me alone but everybody thinks I’m schyzofrenic sorry that my english is a little broken but how can I get rid of them I wish it was just a experience like yours

  9. Chantal Allen says

    Thank you. I needed to hear your story. I am having a kundalini awakening which has been going on for a few weeks now, I have been preparing myself for it for the last 3 years but wow there really is nothing like it.
    Om shanti

  10. Hello Simona,
    Thank you so much for your article. I also had put myself away from the new age culture, for me it was because of the think and grow rich and due to the self serving part and not serving God. Now I milded a bit down, still the same about the service for higher welbeing for others and serving God part but mainly what I understood after my awakening proces, in Christianity its calles the indwelling of holy spirit and in new age it is called awakening the higher self, although there isnt much of the self left. The kundalini awakening I have felt was like the burning sensation, the same information is also written in the bible as baptism of fire. So that was a relief to me that the information I found I could recognise from the east and the west where similiar and resonating within me as information sources coming from truth. Thank you for all your work, much blessings

  11. I am also in the kundalini process. Not sure exactly what is happening right now, but I have been baptized in the Holy Ghost since I was in my 20’s. I am now 77 yrs. old and the bible does say what Demi just said, but does not elaborate on that subject of being baptized with fire, or at least in my knowledge. I have also read that if everything is clear for kundalini to do what she does, you don’t feel her, not sure if this is true though. Is this the moral purification of the body? I’ve always thought, if you get the mind right the body follows suit. I know I’m in for a shock though. Just thinking. I don’t know exactly when my process started. although what first got my attention was a pain that went fully around my head and formed a a halo (a silver one) so looking back I have had dreams about this for a while. The rewiring dream I had a few yrs back etc.. So thanks for letting me blab.

  12. Sir you have written all 100% truth about what happend to me in process of Kundali awakening.Tq.You are absolutely right.I have passed my death day and Im able to control me now fully.

  13. Question on the awakening. I’ve been very intently studying scripture, praying and seeking God for about 2 years now. A few months in, I began to hear whispers during the time when I was asleep, and the whisper brought me to full wakefulness/hearing. These whispers were (in order, spread over about 8 months) “Praise His Name” “Come” “Home” “Tracy” (my name) “Now”. I can’t remember exactly when but another night I had a dream where I was sitting in a chair in a room, and a voice said “I’ve assigned one to you.” And into the room came running something big that was shaking the whole scene as it came at me. When it “hit” me, I woke up, and felt this pulsing sensation around my body. The pulsing lasted only a short time – maybe 7 “pulses” like it was syncing up to my breathing. I called on Jesus’ name when I woke up and the pulsing didn’t abate.

    For some time after this I had intense vibration in my head especially that would wake me up in the middle of the night. The vibration also pulsed, like a “vvvvvvvvv:” “vvvvvvvvv”. Over a period of some weeks the vibration lessened but never completely stopped. From time to time I have what I can only feel like a flow of energy through my head and often into my chest. At night I’ve had a euphoric sort of flow also in my head and chest. During the day my head vibrations would become so intense as to almost black me out. I prayed and prayed about it but no direct answers have come, but one night I spent all night in intense prayer and had a dream-conversation with another voice that went something like this: Voice: “What is a change of mind?” Me: “Repentance” Voice: “Do you repent?” Me: “I repent.” Then I woke up, and can still vividly recall this conversation.

    Can anyone help shed some light on similar experiences or knowledge?


    • Hi. I wanted to know what has going on with you. Like an update. Could we talk privately like say your email?

      • Yes I had similar experiences.Not only that,I have had a dream of Jesus.It was looking as if i am in my wake life ,and talking to him telepathically even in my dream.Usually in dreams we talk,but he was not talking,he was communicating telepathically.My whole family believes in Hinduism.So before me ,no one knew who he was and I had no connection with Christianity whatsoever.I was going through some situational pain ,and deep pain in my life.Which might have opened me to the divine.I was praying day and night.As Tracy mentioned,I started to hear voices in my ears,like when I pray and sit in meditation,I would often hear a very authoritative voice yet calm,Says It shall given unto you”Don’t be afraid. Multiple time i have heard this kind of voice. Every time when I would go according to what I was asked to do by this voice,I have always won the situation,It happens for me.So down the road,some Christians judged me that these are demons.Since I was new to Christian faith .I trusted them..But before these experience,one time when It all started..It started from vivid visions of Bright Golden Pegasus,Doves etc..On my head ,I was feeling the Angels are singing,and Even people who worked with me at the time literally feel the cold breeze around my body and on top of my head .I was freaked out ,because I had no one to guide me..All i was doing is,sitting alone and meditating on Jesus and praying in my mind.Some people judged me by saying ,Meditation is New Age.But I could not understand ,how sitting and praying to God and focusing on Jesus is new Age.Orthodox Christians does that.For the matter of the fact all Eastern religions emphasizes on Meditation.Down the road…I was manifesting healing powers,I was able read someone’s mind,not because i wanted to do,but It was just through innate knowing.I have not experience any burning sensations.But however I was going through deep emotional turmoil and I was able to feel the emotions of any unknown person,Sometimes that made me cry,that this person just needs a hug.It just made my heart so sad at the time,All i used to want is giving people hug and just tell them,you are doing great,and everything is going to be ok. Slowly in 4 years these powers are gone.I am glad!It was very overwhelming. Because my focus was never to get these powers,but to know who is Divine,Who is God. Simona is right…while going through this,Spirits were attracted to me.Since my sensations are heightened now ,I can totally feel their presence. But at the time,I was freaked out,I had seek out Psychics and mediums out of fear.Because i did not know anything ,if they are passed loved ones or Demons in disguise.This thing is still questionable in my mind though.But lets consider according to Bible that they are Demons.I still feel their presence ,but i had no intent to communicate and open myself to any of them.I respect these spirits from a distance,because they exist as we exist and I am only and only seeker of God not less than him.Oh Also i been hearing the sounds in my ears since past 4 years.Exactly like if someone just had slapped you on cheek and you hear a very particular noise in ears like “Shhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn”.I have seen my dr. couple of time thinking there might a problem with my ear drum,or may be there is a huge accumulation of wax,but to my amazement,dr. said your ears are crystal clear and no problem with ear drums or anything,No wax found.It used to bother me a lot,but now my body has adapted to it.If anyone has similar experience to share or any explanations ,i would love to know and hear from them.

  14. Do you need to be vegetarian?
    I had a glimpse of awakening or what I thought it to be.
    Through the use of entheogens,
    I always see the same sort of thing on occasions it is different.
    I see a smoke that is constantly changing and has cogs + gears
    it has violet light running through it… is this a archon?
    one time I became this being.
    It touched my head Then I was travelling down a light tunnel/ vortex
    And it cannot put it into words
    webbing was in all the corners of the rooms and on my arms.
    I could see a triangle with a extruding triangle of light made out of rgb fractles.
    It felt like I was beyond time or no time
    A bit scary not knowing you could come back
    I thought this is it..ha ..ego death or real death
    But I panicked jumped up then everything started coming back but I could see this stuff a lot longer than normal so I thought I had opened my third eye….not sure.
    I don’t know even where to start on spiritual path.
    What is the right one so many
    But I would like to start.
    After my experience i thought Maybe I was a stream enterer / or once returner in buddhism.
    But how would you know.
    Anyway thanks
    And I enjoyed your post x

  15. Erik Heyninck says

    I sense that what you write is right.
    No theoretical knowledge but practical experience.

  16. Georgia Prevail says

    Hi Simona and everyone,
    Thank you for this article.
    My brother died by suicide because of this. Please, please be careful, because sometimes you can’t get back.

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